Please don't use the restraints: forgetting, failure, and childbirth
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2016-07
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Towson University. Department of Mass Communication and Communication Studies
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Rowe, D. D. (2016). Please Don’t Use the Restraints: Forgetting, Failure, and Childbirth. Qualitative Inquiry, 22(6), 484–489. https://doi.org/10.1177/1077800415622486
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The end of the story is all you care about. So, let’s get that out of the way first. Penelope Jane was born on March 23rd.
She was healthy. The trauma of that day still resonates within my body, called into being through subsequent visits to the
hospital and a review of my own medical records from that day. A life-threatening fever and 9 hours of pushing led to a
powerfully negative birth experience, one that I am consistently told to just forget. After she had a weeklong stay in the
neonatal intensive care unit (NICU), I have a healthy daughter. In this article, I use auto/archeology as a tool to examine my
own medical records and the affective traces of my experience in the hospital to call into question Halberstam’s advocacy
of forgetting as queer resistance to dominant cultural logics. While Halberstam explains that “forgetting allows for a release
from the weight of the past and the menace of the future” I hold tightly to my memories of that day. This article marks the
disconnects between an advocacy of forgetting and my own failure of childbirth and offers a new perspective that embraces
the queer potentiality of remembering trauma.